EMO NO MORE.

Friday, April 06, 2007

ermm.,.,
euu noe bout mii closez frens n all.,.,de gwen.,.,elena.,.,
joel.,.,fiona.,.,deon.,.,
n more.,.,.
haiz.,.,i juz feel replaced.,.,.
by tis guy named hakim.,.,

he really woke mii up.,.,

ferst.,.,deon.,.,last tyme.,.,
he wud speak chines to me very often!
now.,.,he doesnt.,.,n instead uses it on kim.,.,
lyke.,.,he is DAT better.,.,
den.,.,wen deon n fion n gwen were tolking chinese in de cab.,.,
bout mii n tis gerl.,.,
den i saed.,.,WERE GOT ?!?!HU SAE I LYKE HER??
den he asked.,.,ouh.,.,eu can understand ar??
lyke.,.,very wat lor.,.,
he forgot!!!
urghx.,.,

den dat dae.,.,it was recess.,.,
i was wif deon.,.,as usual.,.,.,
n i wanted to find tis gerl.,.,nazhiifah.,.,
deon was lyke irratated.,.,
y euu keep looking for her one?!?!
den i sae i wan ask bout de song we both wrote together.,.,
den i finally spotted her from afar.,.
he followed reluctantly i tink.,.,
den i passed hakim.,.,.
den i tolked to deon.,.,
he didnt reply.,.,n as i turned around.,.,
he was actually sitting wif him!!!
i was lyke tolking alone!!!!
eurgx.,.,

den i didnt wan to go to naz alone.,.,
den i went back past him thrice!!!
he pretended not to c!!!
den i went to fion n gwen lar,.,.,
as he wont entertain mii.,.,
den de two gerls juz wolked past mii n juz saed.,.,
hi hafiz!.,.,
i stood der for a few secs.,.,thinking.,.,is dat it?
i came for company n dey juz walked past me??
n i turned.,.,onlii to c dem wif him too!!!!
urgx,.,.,lyke he is de new mii!!
den i juz went to naz n told her wat happened n such.,.,
n she asked mii.,.,
wat does dis tell euu??
dis tells euu dat eu r no.2 compared to him.,.,
i was lyke.,,ouh.,.,.,ok.,.,.
den lyke de word R-E-I-N-C-A-R-N-A-T-E-D keep repeating in my mind as i strolled alone,.,
during de rest of de recess tyme.,.,
den wen i went to line up after recess.,.,
onlii to c dem crowding around kim.,.,
n deon.,.,he actually scolded mii!!! he saed.,.,
wer euu go?!?!i looked for euu de whole recess.,.,!!!
den i went away wen he turned around.,.,
i wen to sit behind tis car dat was parked.,.,
n actually cried!! cant b helped!!
den he n gwen n ikan bilis came.,.,
dey all persuaded mii to sit wif de oths,.,.,
haiz.,.,i didnt tolk for dat whole dae.,.,
juz wrote on pieaces of paper.,.,
haiz.,.,.
den zeke go sit my place to tolk to elena..,.,
den i had to sit at his place.,.,wic was beside deon!!
den he nvr bothered to persuade mii.,.,or even tolk!!
den i coverd my face not wantin to c de world for a while.,.,
n he actually told mii.,.,I DUNW ANT TO C EUU CRY!
ferst.,.,i wasnt about to cry!
second even if i did.,.,i cant believe he wud actually sae dat!
den i noticed.,.,
DAT HAKIM KPO!!!
I SAD DEN HE SAD!!!
N DEON WENT NEAR HIM N TOLK2 TO HIM!!
HELLO!! I CRIED JUZ NOW!!!EVEN MORE MISERYFUL!!!!!!!!!!
DAT KIM JUZ PUT HIS HEAD DOWN!!!
N HE WENT TO COMFORT HIM!!!
URGHX.,.,
aar!!!!!!!!!shouting from de heart!!
den i went back to mii place not wantin to c dat anymore!!
den i scolded zeke.,.,wic i nvr did b4.,.,
to ask him go back to his place.,.,
n i put my head on de table juz drawing a pic
of a guy hanging himself.,.,
n de word R-E-I-N-C-A-R-N-A-T-E-D put in de middle
it was lyke.,.,i m dead.,.,noone nids mii anymore.,.,
n i was reincarnated into dat kim.,.,
den naz wrote a letter to deon explained y i lyke dis.,.,
n she showed mii de letter.,.,
i read it.,.,it was.,. SO DAMN DEEP.,.,
dey keep saeing i was sensitive n such.,,it really woke mii up.,.,
deon oso saed..,.,
he was angry wif mii alot of tymes for de past terms
n he juz tolerated mii.,.,
i realised i was a thorn in de flesh.,.,
n de next dae.,.,i was ok.,.,
juz less irratating.,..,.,
less angry n sad.,.,
actually it was more.,.,
i bottled evrything up to myself! i was scared to tell anyone.,.
later dae sae i was sensitive.,.,
lyke dat dae.,.,all of dem surrounded mii.,.,
n pointed fingers at mii sae how sensitive i was.,.,
sigh,.,.,juz aint cool no more.,.,
i dun feel close to dem ready.,.,
n yar.,.,i did ask dem one by one thru letter.,.,
compare mii wif kim.,.,
gwen n fion agreed dat he was cuter dan mii.,.,
aar!!dey owaez sae i was de cutest.,.,
n joel saed..,i dunnoe,.,.den deon gave de longest reamark.,.,

''he funny but euu cute.
he enthu eu not.
eu gentleman he not.''

dat is so comfermed fake!
bout not saeing i was not funny nor enthu.,.,i was ok.,.,
but i noe inside him he noes hakim cuter.,.,
i dun give a damn to cute-ness eva since.,.,
n i nvr realised myself not enthu b4.,.,
juz coz..,.,i dint sing de song wif him in class.,.,
wich it wasnt de right tyme!!!
n he called mii not enthu.,.but nvm.,.,
ill juz put it aside.,.,
i juz aint up to his standard..,.,
onlii elena understands mii.,.,
she sae she oso sensitive.,.,
i noe dat isnt a gd ting.,.,
but it was.,.,for me.,.THEN.,.,
she was de onlii one hu wud.,.,
euu noe.,.,''tolk'' to mii.,.,
sigh., but i dun hate hakim though.,.,
i juz.,.,i dunnoe,.,envy him?.,.,

i guess dats all den.,.,.,signin off.,.,de same mii.,,.juz a new attitude.,.,.i hope.,.,
full of emotions in de heart.,.,bottled up.,.,

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